Trying to be Thankful Thursday

Happy Thankful Thursday to you!

As much as I would love to pretend that everything in life is peachy and perfect

I'm afraid I have to be honest.

I've been having a hard time being thankful as of late.

More so I've been having a hard time,

remembering God's faithfulness.

I'm currently struggling.

It's been hard watching those around me move on with their lives

while I feel like I'm stuck, stagnant and going no where.

I'm struggling to fight off thoughts that

I am not good enough

I am not desirable

I am not worth it

I am unwanted, unloved and unworthy.

It sounds so silly as I write this,

but unfortunately it's my reality and it's ugly.

Needless to say I haven't really been in the 

"thankful" mood the past few weeks.

All the more reason to sit and think about all of the Lord's provisions.

He is faithful,

whether I "feel" it or not.

So today I am thankful for

great books

time alone reading in the park

soccer games

letters from Hawaii

the ability to run

apples and peanut butter

gmail chatting

learning how to love from my sweet niece

weddings

 designing wedding flowers

dancing

getting to wear a bridesmaid dress more than once

these two lovely ladies who have greatly impacted my life

and relationship with the Lord

traveling

snugly couch conversations

giving terrarium building lessons

getting to know my friends husband more

babies being born

spending time in Utah with my dear friend Christina

being in the mountains

snowfall

cold weather

really great hot chocolate

adventure

exploring

snowshoeing!

spending time with my family

a dad who takes care of my car troubles

(even when thousands of miles away)

a brother who has allowed me to use his car for the past few weeks

while I don't have one

catching up with friends I haven't talked to in ages

planning reunion weekends with college friends

my sweet roommates

decorating our cozy apartment

watching my front porch garden grow

Downton Abbey

trips to the zoo

learning how to pray

learning about my passions

sweet times with the girls I disciple

I know that today,

I am truly thankful that there is purpose in all things.

That no matter what season of life I am in,

God's purpose is great and His faithfulness will be unveiled. 

What are you thankful for today?...