Sunday, September 11, 2011

Support Update: The Homestretch

I should very much be sleeping right now.
(It's 3:30am)

But I'm not.
Pretty standard as of late. 
Anxiety tends to keep me up now most nights.
If I'm lucky, I'll be asleep before the sun starts to come up.

Today was a rough day in the world of raising support.
I feel pretty beat up and bruised.
I'm tired.
I'm emotional.
I really feel like crying, but I haven't (yet).
And I have that ever so slight gnawing in the pit of stomach that just seems to linger.

Today was one of those days that I kept asking God those two things...
"Why" and "How".
Two words that are so detrimental.
They provoke so much doubt.
I can't stand them.
I hate questioning God.
And yet I find myself doing it all the time.
Today was a constant struggle for me.

The answer is...
I don't know "why" and I don't know "how".
And that is precisely how God wants is for the time being.
I just have to be patient.

I hate to admit this,
but I am probably the most impatient person you'll ever meet.
Which is quite funny considering the fact that
God always seems to be putting me in situations where all I do is wait.
You think He might be trying to teach me something?...
Yeah, that's what I'm starting to think as well.

In other support raising news:
I am currently sitting at 75.5% supported.
I am only in need of 9 more people to join my team at $100 a month.
We are now into the single digits!
That is less than $1,000 a month folks.

I'm DYING to be done.
I"m DYING to be on campus.
I'm DYING to be with the students.
I'm DYING to see God change lives.
I'm DYING to see what the Lord has in store!

But I can't until I am at 100%.
I'm on the homestretch, I can feel it.
I'm sitting on 3rd base.
And I am just waiting for that last teammate to bring me sliding into home.

And what a happy and joyful day it will be
when that does happen!

If you would like to hear more about the ministry I will be involved in
with Campus Crusade for Christ,
I would love to hear from you!
You can email me at this address:

If you would like to make a donation and/or
join my my monthly support team...
You can do that here!

"God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful".
-1 Corinthians 1:9

1 comment:

Bre Lynne said...

praying for you lady! miss you alot and I KNOW God will provide :)