Thankful Thursday: swallowing my pride and choking down some humble pie

Happy Thankful Thursday to you!

i have to start off by saying that

there's nothing i like more than big fat slice of humble pie.

{sarcasm}

pride.

a word i have come to know and hate as of late.

i've learned i'm full of it.

and trust me i'm not proud of it

{a little play on words for ya}

god has a great way of putting me in my place

exactly when i need it.

the past 7 years i have been independent

on my own

making home{s} for myself all over central and southern california

i have been blessed with amazing opportunities to

 grow

learn from my mistakes

travel the world

 meet new people

learn to live with all types of roommates

 learn to be an adult

make my own decisions

i have moved 5 times in the past 7 years

but every time i have it's always been for something specific

school, work....

as i sit here and write this

i'm about to make my 6th move

but this ones different

{very different}

and extremely humbling

and to be honest i'm terrified

not necessarily about the move

but about the fact that i literally have no idea what my life will look like tomorrow

in the coming days, weeks, months

here is where i get real honest...

i'm 25

i left my job of two years in full time ministry

i'm now unemployed

i'm leaving my amazing roommates who i can't imagine living without

and i'm moving back in with my parents

{i literally had to choke down my pride as i wrote that}

like i said

god knows exactly where and when to humble me

and currently there's no time like the present

i'm struggling

i'm struggling comparing myself to those around me

who are "moving on" with their lives

as i take what appears to me as giant "steps back"

if you had asked me in college where i thought i'd be 5 years down the road

it would not have been here

i would not be single, unemployed and moving in with my parents.

{once again swallowing my pride}

BUT

god is good

he is faithful

he is steadfast

i can not mess up his plan

and there is comfort in that

these are promises that i am clinging to for dear life

so today,

today i am thankful for

the past two years

working for cru

living with phenomenal women who have taught me so much

our wonderful and cute apartment

irvine

learning to be independent 

learning to be dependent on the lord

parents who are welcoming me home with open arms

learning to be content with where i am

god's word

promises in scripture

walking blindly into the unknown

figuring out what im passionate about

flowers, flowers oh and flowers

being a dreamer

not being afraid of chasing after dreams

whatever the heck lies ahead

being fully known

and fully loved by god

that as i sit here and pack

as walls and spaces become empty

 i can't help and smile at the memories made in this place

no matter where you are in life,

what are the things that you are thankful for right this very moment?....